You are ENOUGH

Hey yall. I know……..it’s been a minuet since I posted a blog. I guess I just haven’t felt like writing, kinda don’t today……but I need to, if that makes sense. I have been struggling with self doubt, speaking negatively about myself, and just depression in general. So I guess I’m gonna get a little raw today. I’m the person that is quick to speak words of comfort and peace and affirmation to others, but when it comes to speaking those words to myself….it just don’t happen. When someone compliments me or tells me I am beautiful I am quick to come back with “I’m nothing special, I’m not pretty, I don’t deserve,” ……..comments like that. I know I can’t be the only one…….i know someone out there can relate. But how many times after speaking so harshly of yourself do you end up loosing it and the tears come? We speak it so we believe it. But guess what, God tells us He created us in HIS image…….so how can I be all that and be in His image. As hard as this is about to be for me to say….i can’t. Why, because I AM enough, I AM worth it, and my most hardest to swallow……I am pretty. I was reminded that i need to tell myself that daily until i believe it. What we speak into our selves is what we believe, so choose positivity and joy, not harsh negativity. I still don’t feel enough, but I’m praying and I’m working on it. God tells me I am more than my past. Another friend reminded me that until i lay my past at Gods feet, i wont heal because I’m not allowing God to heal me…..ouch. Gut punch. But these friends are right. I thank God for the people He has been putting in my life during this season. People that love me enough to tell me the hard reality that I don’t necessarily want to hear…….but need to. I am having to learn to forgive myself. I am having to learn to not beat myself up. My children are looking to me as an example……I want my daughter to only ever know how beautiful she is, and my son to know he is good and is worth loving. My life verse right now is 2 Chronicle 20:15. It basically reminds me not to fear because God is fighting my battles……..that includes the mental ones. Your mind is a place Satan will attack so so quick…..and its easy for him to take you down there. But God is stronger….just quite fighting, be held, and let God. I’m speaking ALL this to me.

Sometimes we walk through hard times so that God can build us back stronger, and use us to show others just what He can do. I AM worth it, I AM more, I AM beautiful. Same for you. You ARE worth it, you ARE more, and you ARE beautiful. Today, let’s not just be kind to others but be kind to ourselves. How can we grow and heal if we constantly put ourselves down? Answer……..we wont. Let go and let God…..old saying, but so so true. Learn to love YOU……because God loves you. And if God blesses you with a friend that irritates the tar out of you because they don’t care about your feelings, they just care about seeing you grow and succeed…….get down on your knees and praise God for that friend. ❤️