Hello Beloved

Beloved………that’s a pretty bold statement. To call someone your beloved, that’s powerful, deep and means you could love nothing more. Did you know that is what God calls each and everyone of us……..His Beloved. WOW. Just let that sit in. The King and creator of the entire universe calls US Beloved…….thats just how much He loves us.

In a few short weeks it will be 11 months since my husband passed….which means it is roughly 6 weeks to him being gone a year. So so so many emotions have gone through me since that day……..honestly go back 7 months when we received the diagnosis of cancer and my world turned upside down. I have had feelings of hurt, sadness, deep depression, massive anger……and peace. How have I felt peace? Because when I stopped pushing God away and stopped spiraling down a very dark road…….I finally felt His arms around me as He had been holding me the entire time…….and I felt peace. Do I have answers of why…..not really. BUT I do know and have peace that things work out for a reason. I have a story I may never tell the world, but I am coming to realize that the way things happened was Gods way of protecting my kids and I and allowing us to start a new life and journey and write a new story…….and to be honest…..its been rewarding learning true happiness again. Do I miss my husband, yes….very much……but I know God is leading my kids and I into a new season of our lives and He is teaching me every day that He loves me and that I can find peace and contentment in His arms.

When you are married, your spouse is to be your beloved. And as much as you love your spouse….God shows us an even greater love. In Ephesians Paul tells us that God CHOSE us…….He chose us BEFORE the foundation of the world. To know even just a small percentage of the love our God has for me……well it helps me breath and smile and laugh and LIVE. Paul goes on to say that God predestined us to adoption, meaning before God ever created the world, before He ever created us…….He already knew He would adopt us as His children. Obviously I know a little something about adoption. In fact I have told my kids many times that I had the privilege to CHOOSE them, and thats how much I loved them. Let that sink in! God CHOSE us! And when I am in my darkest moments, He gently reminds me of that.

Let’s go deeper. I was raised around livestock all my life. I know that branding an animals shows proof that you own that animal……….it is yours in the eyes of the law. Guess what….Paul tells us that God seals us in Him…….basically branding us as His children. This again goes back to my feelings of peace. To know I am HIS…….He has sealed me to Him with His own brand calling me His child. That knowledge brings such PEACE!

I feel like I’m a little scatter brained on this post….but it all tie back to one thing…..we are HIS…..we are His beloved…..and He chose us and loves us. That is how I have handled what life has thrown at me, that is how I can feel peace in the darkness. And I never wanna not know this peace……..because there is healing in it. If yall have made it this far……you rock. Go out and have a great day knowing you are the CHOSEN child and beloved of the King of Kings!❤️

-Sara